A Little Death
Approximately 2.5 months into navigating a particularly stormy health condition (while frustratingly debilitating, thankfully nothing severe), I could finally see the end of the tunnel. Lately my sleep has been short, overtaken by fits of drowning sensations and strange nightmares that would leave me feeling like I had been burned and reforged anew at least twice a night. It would leave me feeling like I sweated bullets, only to find myself awake with sticky, but otherwise dry skin. Strangely but surely, I could feel myself reinvigorated, as if every single cell in my body has suddenly decided to fight the ailments and expel everything into the air.
About time, perhaps.
The whole process however, brought me little comfort. It's always a bit unnerving, trying to fall asleep, knowing something like this might happen. But it's best not to dwell, as our brain is quick to conjure unwanted associations. The last thing I need is to develop resistance towards a vital daily activity. It's difficult enough for me to get a proper good night's rest as is.
As a small respite, my leave was approved, so three days quiet celebration of Chinese New Year is in order. I have in my mind no particular plan outside of entertaining guests at home, if any, as outside traffic is not amicable and the weather so far has been wretched. It might be nice, however, to get a fine dinner somewhere, or a stroll around a festive neighborhood just to soak the vibe a little bit.
Taking time off jams doesn't give me the speedy recovery I hoped for, and I've grown a tad impatient to get another project rolling. Make a Visual Novel Asset jam has just ended, and I've spotted many lovely submissions aimed to help people to Finally Make That Damn Game (Don't know how to code? Pick a readymade framework. Can't draw? Set of sprites ready to adopt. Have something already but lacking pizzazz? Plug-in scripts galore. No money to hire VA? Free voice packs! Seriously MVNA is a treasure trove of resources). Perchance it's a good time to pick a selection from last year and this year's submissions and present them to Bearblog. Maybe someone would be willing enough to finally give that New Year's Resolution a try.